7 : Waking Life

"the trick is to combine your waking rational abilities with the infinite possibilities of your dreams, if you can do that you can do anything. you ever have a job you hated, you worked hard at? long hard day at work finally you get to go home get in bed, close your eyes. immediately you wake up and realize the whole day at work had been a dream. it's bad enough you're selling your waking life for minimum wage, but now they get your dreams for free." ( waking life. )

I want to use this more, but I've realized it's just where I'm storing conversations and quotes I want to remember. Which isn't so bad, everyone needs some sort of archive. I want to sort through things, because sorting is the start to cleaning.

I was going to go to sleep three hours ago. I stayed up talking to my new California friend Nichelle, and we decided we should sleep. Of course as soon as I was about to get up, David Armstrong messaged me on facebook chat. Since I'm pretty much in love with him, I'm still here, waiting for his call after he's done with his RA stuff.

Pathetic? Maybe.

6 : Pen Pal

Where do you find pen pals?
I want one.


I want someone to teach me Russian.


So, a Russian pen pal would be ideal.
Where can I get one?


I'm increasingly okay with life.
I watched "Love & Sex" last night on demand, a free movie the IFC has so wonderfully given to me to watch at six in the morning to turn me into a temporary emotional wreck.

It's only because I am Kate. In every sense of who she was in that film.
I'm so okay with it though.

5 : Losing

"I really do love you, and I think we're going to be okay. As of now, I'm dropping the whole bitterness thing. It just isn't worth losing you. Nothing is."
"You belong in a romantic comedy too."

I wish I was someone worth losing sometimes.
Then maybe I wouldn't have such a hard time about sorting things.


Bonnaroo line up got released. I wonder if I'm going.
I don't want to see Snoop Dogg.

4 : happy

"I mean i'm sure it'd be different if instead of meeting random girls in nightclubs i could just come see you instead more easily"
"You don't want that, though."
"I don't?"
"I mean, if you did, that'd be great, but. I thought you were enjoying the random girls in clubs, and not being in any kind of actual relationship."
"its good for a while i guess, not a long term solution to happiness though, is it."
"Not that more frequent visits make that anything substantial or relative to a relationship, and I could just be jumping to conclusions, and I suppose it could be, if you wanted it to be hard enough. But no, random club girls usually don't lead to long term happiness."


"Sometimes Americans do, though."
"That's what I heard."



Life is about love, lost minutes, and lost evenings.


"We should be able to accept you without you taking any further courses, depending on your grades and SAT or ACT scores. To enter a bachelors programme here, you need to have passed your High School Graduation with an overall averge of B and one of the following. SAT 1 with a score of 1500 or APE with 3 passes with grade 3 or above, or ACT with a composite score of 23-26."

It is unreal how much I can do this. Who would have thought?

3 : Negative

I hate the backspace key. When I type, I literally think out loud and dismiss myself sentence after sentence. I've come to really realize and come to terms with how negative I am towards myself.

I'm starting to convince myself I'm good for something.

I owe AT&T $1,000 and I have yet to really figure out how I'm going to come up with it.

I'm more or less asleep these days, it's a feeling no one should ever have to deal with.

2 : Favorite

Kt and I are talking again.
She's always been my favorite.

Probably always will be, anyway.

1 : Aye

I am not ditching livejournal.
I'm just going to keep telling myself that.